As the calendar is about to flip to a new year, a new decade, I, along with a lot of people have been doing a lot of reflecting on the year, and decade that has been.
This decade has been one of massive growth and transition for me.
A lot happens between the ages of 14 and 24.
I have been thinking a lot about that 14 year-old girl who was so afraid. Afraid of the future, afraid to be herself, afraid of not having it all figured out.
I still don’t have it all figured out. Not by a long shot.
But as I think about this decade, where I spent time on 3 continents, learned to ride horses, finished high school, obtained a bachelors degree, and a graduate certificate. Where I had my first heartbreak. Where I moved away from home, and then, moved halfway around the world (twice). Where I traveled to new cities alone and tired new foods I never could have imagined. Where I learned to talk with strangers and look people in the eye with confidence. Where I learned to become comfortable with the uncomfortable. Where I started saying “yes” to things that scared me and pushed me out of my comfort zone.
Maybe 2020 feels so significant to me because it is the first full decade that I truly remember.
Maybe it is significant because I so vividly remember being 14 years old and feeling so small. Being so afraid of everything. Feeling so uncertain. And now, 10 years later. I can see the growth. I can feel the confidence that I have. I can see how I’ve become someone I am proud of.
Normally I’m sad to say goodbye to the year that has been, but this year I am looking back with gratitude, and looking ahead excited about what the future holds – the good, and the bad.
And now, I’ll leave you with my favorite new year quote. I wish you all of the good madness in 2020, and beyond.
“May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art — write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.”